Like A Melody And Harmony In Love

One more day,

2009-12-31T00:00:00.000+08:00

(icanread)

I have prepared this post longer than before 2009 ends.

Every year is a tragic one, be it for you or me or her or him.

I end my 2009 in pain and sorrow, but on a brighter side i have many that made me smile this year and that too includes you.

So let me end things here as ill be moving to a new "online-diary" site very soon.

I can't believe that iam almost towards the end of year 1 in poly,how fast has it been?I remembered enrolling and attending the orientation in April.

And you was the first one i told my experiences to and how much i don't feel like attending classes.

However,my friends and others around me were going through the same thing,i felt that poly was not bad at all.

E36R were the first friends i made.And how awesome have they been up till now.

We've been friends for barely a year and everyone in the clique are so attached and we feel so much comfortable that we could talk about anything under the sun.Be it studies,problems,gossips to KPOP.heh.

Andre left Singapore for a period of time has been a big deal to us girls.I still remember sending her off at the Changi Airport and we cried like there's no tomorrow and that was the most saddest day.BUT LOOK!How time flies she's back here!

Shit happens this year too however,there is more complicated,hard chapters next year that we had to overcome which is about the same or could be worse.

You,2009 has been like other 2 years,awesome.Even if its not for long,thank you for standing by me and all those special or maybe not days.

My girls,you guys were the best support i ever had be it in anytime of the year or throughout this 5 years.Im sure you girls know more than this,I love you very much.And nothing could replace any,ANY one of you.

And to all,have your resolutions prepared and i wish you all the best in achieving your resolutions and may 2010 be a happy year ahead.(Happiness is all we want right?)

(icanread)

AM officially off to my new blogging site! :)

AND QURAISHA BABY,HAPPY 18TH LOVE!

Just so you know

2009-12-27T23:45:00.002+08:00

Andreyana let me listen to a beautiful song sang by Taylor Swift ft Colbie Callait.

"People are people and sometimes we change our minds

But its killing me to see you go after all this time. "-Breathe

2009-12-27T11:53:00.000+08:00

Fahmi's Engagement

2009-12-26T22:45:00.004+08:00

I have couple more pictures but then,this will do since blogger is taking its own sweet time uploading pics.

This made me even more determine to move to other "online-diary" sites.But i made one already(?).HAHA.

Oh wells,Abg Ami had his engagement day today,it was a smooth sailing one and we are glad that everything went fine. :)

Aunty : Did you just did the bunga rampai?

Me : Yeah,why?

Aunty : Oh so soon uh.

Me : HUH SOON?

Aunty : Soon to get engage :D

Me : Ya Allah.*smack on forehead*

what has left

2009-12-26T22:41:00.001+08:00

"Goodbye may come as a shock

Eventhough i love you alot

Ive given every breath i got

Sometimes you just gotta break down and breathe"

Im trying

2009-12-24T21:45:00.004+08:00

(loveyourchaos)

I'll be posting some depressive photos that are either a motivation to feel better or atleast its somebody in this world whom i'll never meet feels the same way as i do and share the same pain.

So bear with me,however,no worries,i have prepared a way to welcome 2010 and definately it is not in this blog.

This blog and the previous had many many awesome and hurtful memories that plays a part of me growing up and understanding what life is.

Im always afraid about how am i going to get back on feet from this deep fall.

Am i going to make it or do I just give up?

But.Why give up when there are many chances around me,when there are the ones who willing to catch me and when there is someone out there have it worse than me?

Staying positive and accepting the fact that im have faded in your heart wasn't and never will be easy.

(Clarie had an amazing quote ^^)
So,faith and strength,please come around.

Somethings,we have to figure it out ourselves.

2009-12-24T15:10:00.002+08:00

(iloveblog)

(loveyourchaos)

2009-12-23T00:22:00.003+08:00

(icanread)

Its killing till pretence is a better way.
In another words,living in denial.

"Your the one that i loved,
the one thing that i tried to hold on to" -Goodbye to you

Typical Tuesday turns Great

2009-12-22T23:27:00.007+08:00

A great way to kick start the week. Spent my tuesday with KGs at town.Town was so packed that we barely breathe,really.So many sales = so many temptation.HUMPH.

But at night,it was B-E-A-UTIFUL. :)

Much loves

Ifs...

2009-12-21T21:40:00.004+08:00

Just like how u pictured,everyone else has the same picture.

Faith,please come around.

I missed you.

And this pain is far too much.

Wash these pain away

2009-12-21T00:57:00.002+08:00

(icanread)

2 years and i still feel the same.

"When I close my eyes,its you I see"

2009-12-20T21:47:00.000+08:00

Was in need of something to cheer me up.

Mir love.

2009-12-20T20:53:00.002+08:00

(icanread)

Will you stay and listen,just once?

I can't to this any further therefore ...

2009-12-20T01:17:00.002+08:00

(loveyourchaos)

Im ready to believe in myself.

That how much pain,how hard this is,its just making me stronger.

That its okay to lose.

And that im going to be just fine.

Im ready.Just give me the faith.

I never thought we'd fall out of place

2009-12-18T22:31:00.004+08:00

Thanks to my visitor,im feeling extra emotional and dry.

But kudos to my baby girls,i had too much endorphins which is very healthy. :) I love you girls.

Photos up in facebook and pips multiply! ^^

2009-12-17T22:22:00.004+08:00

Cheekiest fellas. GRRRR

Mum's celebration dinner at Newton last Saturday. ^^

Nigel's small celebration.

Proposed by KF.Awwww.

This is sooo belated however,Happy 19th dear Nigel-o.I wished that our small surprise has surprised you(i knew it did) and im glad that you appreaciate this small effort that we've made.Though this wasn't the best celebration much less a party but is a thoughtful gift,sweetest thang and how we are shocked that you teared.I wish you the best in obstacles that you might overcome in the future,be happy and YURI Jjang(?)!HAHA

2009-12-14T23:44:00.002+08:00

(loveandtheliar)

Holidays kicking in,and im loving it.

Nigel's and Mum's birthday photos have yet to be uploaded.Will upload 'em respectively.

Its weird but im looking forward for a good night's sleep and how wonderful that i can finally wake up late tomorrow.AWESOME. :)

Supposedly,

2009-12-08T23:16:00.002+08:00

I don't want to remember tomorrow

neither do i want

to be reminded of the yesterdays.

When will things turn out right?

2009-12-03T22:09:00.003+08:00

Its been awhile,not that nothing happend but the fact that i was drifting afar from blogger and times im just plain lazy to update.

School has been busy,like normal.Ive been feeling alot more lazier this week compared to other weeks.Maybe the holidays are kicking in and Im so feeling the holiday breeze.Before that,UTs are coming next week,another 2 papers will resume once we start school.Im least prepared but i don't want to flunk UT2.Sighs,so prolly I'll start my mugging on the weekends so which means I'll have to stay home this coming weekend.Sighs.

I backspaced my thoughts again. :\

Photos : Sentosa Family Getaway

2009-12-03T21:55:00.003+08:00

No words but AWESOMENESS. :DDD

This is love

2009-11-26T08:33:00.012+08:00

Dued photos uploaded.Last Wednesday,four of us made a trip down to bugis to get pair of nerd glasses.On that day too G-4(Geek four) was born.It was a fun night cause since the end semester 1,we all hardly went out together or have our friday night outings after school.We indeed need to this more often aye. :)

So,Andreyana finally came back from Australia(!!)

Met up with my girls last night.It was awesome simple night with alot of catching ups and boys talk.5 years and counting,many boys came and left,many shits has happened and what's best : At the end of the day,we have each other's back and definitely they are the girls i can count on.Girls,Saranghae(!)

This have yet to happen!It must happen soon.KG babies(!!)I miss you girls(!!)

Am having maths now,its bullshit that I have never touch Add Maths in sec school and i have to solve problems using Add maths now.Tsk,im so dying.Shall shift my focus,

Anyeong!

2009-11-14T23:12:00.002+08:00

Did i mention that UTs have ended?!Last paper was yesterday.Maths was manageable for once.Or maybe for once,i really put in more efforts revising.*pat on the back*

Im going to catch on my sleep that i have been missing for past 2 weeks and im going to charge my battery because i was really dying yesterday.

Its still an early Saturday night but im feeling all worn out and my bed looks so tempting that im going to hit the sack very very soon.heehee.

Monsoon season has its effect on us.Weather has been very cold and everybody is feeling so down.I know wound takes its times time to heal but i think its taking far too long.When was it you left me hanging and then told me this not going to work.It feels like yesterday and that i still can't help tearing thinking about this.

My girls are feeling low at this moment.We all deserve a tiny break because this just bring us too far down and its not right.I love you girls and we should meet very soon. :)

Good night people.

2009-11-10T22:25:00.003+08:00

Im left with two papers.MCB and Maths.So while trying to revise earlier,little Andy never failed to disturb me.He climbed on to the bed,hop on to the table and started crashing things.He's a very sweet cute naughty kid that i look forward to coming home everyday but at times kids are so noisy and annoying and so hard to control them.

Im trying not to neglect this blog and im close to forgot that i actually own a blog.Nothing much has been happening other than mugging for UTs.I found out many little dark secrets and all these got me surprised.

I felt as though today was Thursday.Time was passing so slowly.Its just Tuesday and my energy has already drained.Sighs.No good.

I have many chains of thought just that penning it down here doesnt help or do much difference.

Its still amazing how you left a deep impression on me after all these while, and that how i wished that atleast i could bump into you someday.And someday,i really would want you to see me change.That im no longer left hanging.And that im actually doing alright.Matter of fact,im battling against time to heal.Not you.A pinch of sadness,a pinch of anger maybe a pinch of regret.That has made me a little more wiser than i think iam.

P.S i humiliated myself just now.:(

When best of the best reunite,we only get AWESOMNESS.

2009-11-06T20:49:00.003+08:00

Yesterday night was one of the all time best reunion,though many did not get to attend the campfire and though we had a mass cheer instead of campfire,everything was AWESOME and truly missed.No matter how many times we went to Bahtera,most of the things we kept talking was our punishments during the torturous training camp 2-3 years ago.100plus push ups in a day,push ups when we are late,push ups when shirts are tucked out,push ups when any of us drop the kayak,sentry duties.It gives a warm memories.And is definitely missed.
Other than that,Suf had this idea to make a parody of songs.So we had,Fire and I dont care by 2ne1,Again&again by 2pm and finish off with SorrySorry by Suju.I didn't know Suf have this korean craze.If only he had know this earlier,than we could make parodies for campfires. haha.

Im waiting for group photos from Fee.Ceps ah Pi. ^^

Brother found my ipod.Hip hip hurraysss!So no more loser handphone music no more loser handphone earpiece and no more loser "maximum applications". :D

I feel like upating again later,so

LATERS~

My words finally turn out the way i want it to be

2009-10-28T21:08:00.005+08:00

Time flew past really really fast today.Wednesday is coming to an end and 2 more days to weekends.I have never been counting weekends this hard,i don't know how this started.

Anyways,I had my first lab session earlier today.Everyone was practically struggling to get hold of the concepts and complicated calculations do that we are able to do the experiment.I think i took lab periods in secondary school for granted.Just now lab was nothing near secondary days.We have to figure out how much solution and how much of the powder thing to be mixed to get to the end product.We gotten hold in the end.

However,its not much of a lab session instead a camwhore class.We took pictures of everything,every single thing.From experimenting,to washing to wear goggles and more.Pictures with JQ and Afiqah,will wait patiently for it.

Mean while :

To my girls who's mending a broken heart in whatever way,

be strong and no matter how much i've said this,

no matter how many times you've heard this,

I love you girls.

I missed you and i think we all need a little break from whatever unhappiness that is going on.

And on a good note,i may not have moved on for the best,but i think this has made me stronger,in some ways or some ways not.Its nice to reminisce on what we had but its for the best that i don't grip tightly to what we lost.Im greatly thankful that i was shown a sincere love from the start and what's lost shouldn't be regretted.Why i met you because,you were suppose to teach me right from wrong and let me feel the love even if its just for a period of time.And yes,you did your part.

Its been months and i think its time for me to get on ahead with what i have now and not what i use to have.Maybe i would still find somedays of hoping but really,I need to find my place.

Nights.

"Ish ish,Haris,Haris"

2009-10-26T09:42:00.003+08:00

Surprisingly,Adam did a stand in as his friend was absent.He did and amazing job for the last minute stand in and had one line dialoge.Pre-nursery kids were uberly cute in their costumes.KI and K2 remaked classic stories eg Si Tanggang,Jack and the Beanstalk and many more.One cried on stage,many laughed while "acting".It was worth attending Zulfa Annual Graduation Show.

Oh,i bumped into Azfar!So unexpected!hahaha.

Its Monday and my brain is not working.Im hungry.I want to go home.But no,i can't waste my $70 just like that.Boo.

and Saturday's ending already(??)

2009-10-24T22:27:00.002+08:00

I wasted my Saturday with nothing productive at all.I stayed home all day,did shifting of beds because Sister is moving in very soon.Bad news-with all 9 of us under one roof,I doubt I'll have any privacy.However on a good note,new bed with bouncy mattress is on the way :D So im able to sleep comfortably soon :D

Suprisingly,this week of school was alittle less stress-er than previous week.Or was it maybe that im on fish essence?But whatever it is,I did not died by friday like last week.I think the fish essence is working but drinking that really makes me puke blearghhh :S

Adam is performing tomorrow.I should be looking forward but im not.Cause i asked him what will he do,he replied,"Abang hold letter 'S' ." (aii how interesting is that.)

So will decide whether im going only tomorrow.

Where are you dehhh,its been a week already.

2009-10-19T21:26:00.002+08:00

Today i came up with a reasoning of not eating because i ate 3 meals plus a yummy night dessert yesterday.It all makes me feel guilty but what's the point?

I still ate junks when i got home.PPFT.

I went and meet up with Syuee and Nisa yesterday after a long time.It wasn't so lucky yesterday,wrong eating place(but Cameroon restaurant was nice) and the smell in the train on the way back home.Girls?HAHA

Skyping with Andre now.Woohooo her Graduation dress is so pretty!
So,nights!

Take me away

2009-10-17T20:52:00.005+08:00

(repost from Afiqah's blog)

Reading Huda's and Afiqah's recent post really put a smile.Its warming to see old pictures and those good old times.

I really miss my girls.A while has been too long.I bet when school starts for everyone coming monday,it'll be harder to meet up.Mannn

Speaking of school,im going into the 3rd week soon.Last 2 weeks was exhausting and I can't imagine how hard things will be for 13 more weeks. Semester 2 needs hard work,and im already dying by 2nd week.Sigh.Physics and Maths 2 was a brain wreck.Like really.Its so hard that it got us breathless searching for answers to be presented by 3rd meeting.Cell molecular bio chem and even Cognitive 2 wasn't an exception.This time I regretted.If only I'ld listen to Mrs Yap a little more.Pfft.

Today was a day out with Mum.Its been sometime we two went out together.Went to bugis did some shopping and to geylang for her stuffs.Unsure plans tomorrow hmmmmmm.

And oh,Botak is leaving for a month for Australia tomorrow.Bad news that he's taking camera along with him.hmpf.

My right eye is hurting.I have strong feelings that its going to swell soon.Aiya.Prolly due to long hours infront of lappy.Mannnn.

I want to sleep early today.I don't know why.Its a saturday night but sleepy early doesn't sound right.But thennnnnnn.I should go with what i plan.

Nights

For What's Good

2009-10-15T21:42:00.003+08:00

Holding things in for a period of time hasn't do me any good.

What if I don't mention you any more,What if I don't look at you anymore,What if I try to stop looking back what we could have done.Just What IFs?

How would that make things easier for me?

How would it change for my own good?

After much of holding on,I wouldn't want to tear.Not again.

Because what we had was too real,was too sweet and was too happy that it became hard to hate these beautiful memories we ever had.

But i wouldn't want to hate because everything's too innocent and pure.

Im strong and I will be.

For this,is just another journey that I've yet to find my way out.

Open up and you'll find something new

2009-10-12T20:33:00.005+08:00

Witness beautiful sunset on a wonderful Sunday.It was my first time and I was really in awe.Had tons of photos taken before we know it,the sun has already set.The sky was red and the atmosphere was super good.Earlier that day,had super nice lasagna for lunch and peach ice cream yogurt for dessert.AHHHH.Im craving for it right now.We wasted time on finding petrol station because of the stupid GPS.

As for today,had a small celebration for Dawn's belated birthday.

Class has beginning to get better.I finally did something productive today.Plus i didn't youtube during meetings! Ahh,this is a good achievement.*pat on the back* heee

The good,is on their way.Hold on

2009-10-08T20:51:00.004+08:00

Missing Mrs Yunho here;Clarie.

How long haven't we camwhore right after our touch up session?Man.

That and this is missed.Really.

W14K

2009-10-08T20:15:00.003+08:00

A way to start class bonding was to have lunch together.Yes,odd 20 of us. In one row. How sweet.Atleast some are having intention to get together so that there wouldn't be awkward moments in class.

I have not really open myself up to class yet.I find it hard but this takes time.Its only the start :D so HWAITING! :D

As you see,there are more hot pretty girls than guys.Literally no eye candy.BOO.hahaha

2009-10-04T11:09:00.004+08:00

I've watched this uncoutable times.

Ahhh,Seobang in specs is soooo yummmmmyyyyy.

Clarie and Nisa would agree,right? ^^

It just never gets old

*SCREAMS* I just found this,pardon im little slow but nevertheless,*screammmmms* Yoochun baby @ 0:20! AHHHHH.*FAINTS*

This soo make my morning.HAHAHAHA!

2009-10-02T13:15:00.002+08:00

Im so-super-duper pissed that I haven't recieve replies on my shoes orders.Several emails and comment sent yet there's no news.School's starting and am in bloody need of new shoes.ARGH.

what i typed here,isnt my first thoughts

2009-09-30T21:41:00.004+08:00

When things are no longer hopeful,i wished for a miracle.

And if crying makes you feel better,go ahead.

Things are slowly falling to its place and I believe that time will heal all wounds.

Yesterday,while attempting to delete old emails,I came across many emails and pictures that just give another heartbreak.Bawling was one sad thing but it makes it all better.

I can't wait for tomorrow.

I need to meet my Gang Virgins

I miss my Gang Virgins

I have to stop thinking worrying about weight/figure issue cause its not a big deal(?)

I need to sort out my wardrobe so I won't have hard time finding clothes to wear

They say eating late at night increase the chance of gaining weight,so I have to stop eating at night.

Didn't i mention not to worry about it already?Hmpf.

2009-09-27T00:46:00.000+08:00

We already know its true but we don't believe.

Beautiful 'cause they mean the world to me

2009-09-22T22:37:00.004+08:00

Im going to miss Andreyana.We'll skype and chat like normal okays. :D hehe

I wonder how would I get through all shits without my girls.They are the one who make time worthwhile,who appreaciate every little effort,who agrees and disagrees on many things together(esp when it comes to boys),who just loves me and everyone of us for who we are.

They made me feel I don't need anything else,I don't need to wait because Im perfectly going to be alright.I love my girls deep to the core.Its been years and everything stays the same.I love the way you girls love me and no one could ever replace anyone of us.No one. *hugs*

Im healing.I know Iam. :)

Nights. :)

2009-09-22T09:14:00.001+08:00

Let it fall.Let it break.Let it be gone.Let it dissapear for good.
This time im really breaking away from shits you never appreaciate.
And this time,I really wouldn't want to care.

[edited]Shine

2009-09-21T22:45:00.006+08:00

My Lebaran was simple and alhamdulilah everyone had a safe journey.Meet over at Granny's place and it was so cramped with only half of us there.It was so kecoh that I can't stand the heat and was sweating so bad.Received unexpected messages and laughed out loud about it with Nizam. There's still many pictures over with Sis and Aman Pah's.Will edit once get them.

Salam Lebaran to every Muslims. :D

2009-09-17T22:57:00.003+08:00

I read too much into things that i shouldn't have
I let myself break when I do not need hurt
Because many around still love and care
Why should I let you bring me down?

2009-09-17T15:51:00.001+08:00

I was too blinded by your flaws that I gave it all.
I looked beyond your imperfections to make it happen.
But,why didn't you look through mine?

2009-09-16T17:02:00.002+08:00

I want to be the reason to make a difference,not to be walked over.

2009-09-15T21:08:00.003+08:00

"Turn on the lights of heart"

When Im just about done picking myself up

I found myself crumble again

Broken into pieces

Rushing to piece it back

I found drips of tears,jitterish feelings

that was never worth it

and sleepless night that got me thinking

Don't Forget

2009-09-15T20:27:00.002+08:00

Did you forget that I was even alive
Did you forget everything we ever had
Did you forget
Did you forget,about me

Did you regret ever standing by my side
Did you forget we were feeling inside
Now im left to forget about us

But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You cant forget it

So now I guess this is where we have to stand
Did you regret ever holding my hand
Never again please don't forget,dont forget

We had it all
We were just about to fall
Even more in love than we were before
I won't forget,I won't forget about us

Somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it

And at last,all the pictures have been burned
And all the past,is just a lesson that we've learned
I won't forget,please don't forget
About us

Some where we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song but you won't sing along
You've forgotten
About us.
- Demi Lovato Don't Forget

its our song,just you won't sing along

2009-09-15T08:26:00.001+08:00

You break me,twice.

Heavy

2009-09-13T22:01:00.005+08:00

And so,Alhamdulilah we are left with a week of Ramadhan and a week to beautiful Syawal.Though Ramadhan have not end yet,I felt that im totally blessed with great companions from family to friends and dinner during break fast.

Instead of losing weight this month,i felt that Im putting on weight.Even mum says so.I'll continue eating even after i feel bloated and would only complain when im about to vomit.Tsk tsk.Now im thinking what else is in the fridge.hehehe.Little issue is hanging on my mind whether will i fit my baju raya.Mann.

Speaking of baju raya,im more or less ready for HariRaya.This year seems a little eggciting compared to last year's,i don't know why maybe cause Andy's a little big already to fit into Baju Kurung.I can't wait to see him fully dressed with samping and songkok.yehhhhh.

I need to clean my room a.s.a.p.There's orders of roll tapak kuda piling and we are left with a week which will make mum and I extremely busy.Exxagerating uh.

I miss random moments with 3 ladies here.I know i'll have to meet them up soon,maybe after HariRaya and before school reopens.There's still a long way to school reopens.WAIT.Its not long afterall(?).pfft.

Im digging up the kitchen again.heheh.Nights people. ^^

They're ONE

2009-09-09T21:37:00.007+08:00

****

Pathetic has it may seem,typically crazy how a fangirl can get but this does not only affect me but to many many fans that are as crazy or even crazier than iam.Screw those netizens that have won the useless battle in crushing's one's dream. boo.

*come back Jay Park.*

I think im falling sick.Might caught it from Peepot yesterday,lol,we didn't even share drinks.Hmmms(?)

Alright,Nights.

2009-09-06T21:56:00.003+08:00

"If its only for one second.

We want to stop all the tears in the world and turn them into smiles"

I know i haven't been updating and atleast I should make some effort to update since its my blog and I must keep it alive,haha.

Fasting month has been smooth so far,except i wasted mine today cause of unbearable tummy upset.(I think i ate too much dried mangoes,pfft).2 more weeks to go,it seem kind of fast and thank god that weather has been alright and not to the extreme. :D

I made a trip to Malaysia today,from Angsana Plaza to Bukit Indah Shopping Centre.Grandma spent the most there,she literally bought everything in sight.Its pretty cute when she found everything yummy and grabs it.We bought lots of cracker for upcoming Hari Raya and I wonder if we could finish it.

Im still having tummy upset.BOO.

NIGHTS :D

Back oldschool

2009-08-31T23:34:00.006+08:00

Visiting Fajar wasn't bad afterall.How many memories has that place buried and how many secrets has that place kept?It definately bring back the old feelings and wow,how many things have changed.Lol.Barely a year but we can already spot those differences.Im very happy to see all juniors and felt that I actually existed when i was a student there because of those who were happy to see me as Iam happy to see them.Its been awhile since all of us including Miss Yong sat at concourse and had some lively chat.Its too been awhile since i played captain's ball with peer leaders and class.I didn't see much peer leaders around neither was 1/4 of my class there.I was more than excited to see Haqim.Hehe. :D What else,since there's isnt many of those around,our pictures aren't alot too.I miss Andreyana and if Nad can make it,then it would be complete.Soon,we'll be complete.soon.~ hehe.Oh yes,My KGs,Its been way too long already.mannn.I miss them. And Auntie remembered me very well!For just doing CWO 2 times with her.I would still remember she would secretly give me sweets or snacks whenever i make my trip out of class,she would sit by staircase and we would have little tiny convo before i go up to class during toilet breaks,how about the time when she gave me skirts cause mine was tight?Lol.Yes,she's the best cleaner auntie. :D hee hee.

When I thought I was moving on fine,I realised that I have not really pick myself up well.I unrealisingly find pieces that needed to be picked up to be picked up.How sad was my flaws is avoiding truth and thought things could work out.But if things were to be given another chance,it wouldn't work out as well or either I wouldn't want it to work out and also cause it's over when it is.I have plenty of time to pick myself up,it's only a matter of choice how long i would want to feel hurt.When those memories inevitable,it can only bring smiles.

Take care people.Nights.

Even littlest things has its farewell

2009-08-26T16:27:00.003+08:00

How fast can time possibly fly?
Yesterday marks the last day we,E36R as a class sitting down on our tables together.15 weeks just passed us like that,leaving us with great memories to hold on to and more bond that we should cherish.

I still remember vividly how we all introduce ourselves to the class.We all had different impressions that at the end,contradict with what we are now.

I want to thank every single one in E36R for making my first 15 weeks in RP a very pleasing and wonderful journey.Many bad or unwanted events that have occurred but that all makes us know each other better and is a part and parcel of this journey.Im glad that I met everyone of you because there's all a reason why we are fated to be in a class.We might not be as spontaneous,as good looking or as together as other classes but that makes us a little different.

To QB:Continue working hard as how you were in those 15 weeks.I know I wasn't a big help whenever im in your team,haha.But your definitely a good leader. ^^

Seanie : Lady Gaga madness comes from you.All that hand dancing during Maths lesson was a good stress relief.heheh.^^

JianRong hahahah! : Sky,how in the world can you be so vulgar mannn.MY GOD.But but you are a very smart Ah beng.How funny is that our group always rely on you during Maths.haha.And and last long with Denise ^^

Pau Pau : Nice knowing you Pau.Will miss that contagious laughter of yours.Hahaha ^^

Kian Fai : I don't know how we started talking man,must be during one of those outings we had.And more outings more closer we are right.Hehe.I will miss your dance-breaks and your "un needed comments" hahaha.Show passion for Hip hop~! ^^

Cress : There are times when we really need to let go.You know you will have to stay strong because there's only you that you can really count on.Its nice meeting you Cress.Continue smiling ^^

FC : Eh i also got sunshine okay.hahahah.I guessed Clarie and I really influenced you into Kpop.And who's the one say Family Outing boring??Hahah.See how addicted you are now.haha. Thanks for your jokes that able to make us brighten up.hehe. ^^

Nas : Thank you for the listening ears you had for me.Congratulations,lol!And semoga berpanjangan eh korang dua!HAHA.

Clarie~! : "thank god some one like Kpop!" hahaha. "Is that DBSK?" - That was our first conversation right?I was glad that some one on class actually listens to this.And my touch-up partner!Ill miss the karaoke sessions in class with you,Ill miss our random silly jokes.I'll miss you~ :(

Nigel : Have you cheer up already?You really a good good friend Nigel.Thank you for the time where Im in need of a listening ear esp during my 'you-know-what-time'.Thank you for being there and thank you for being a great friend. ^^

Quraisha : I don't know if I would find someone that i can be as close as i am to you in next semester's class.You really made part of my journey in class enjoyable.I know there are times I just whined and stressed too much but thank you for listening and be there when im in need.How close are we already?I'll miss those little sneaky breaks we'll have during Science,Enterprise and Maths.I'll miss that presence because Im so attached to you.Haha.Thank You Q.*hugs* I'll miss you.

I've already forgot how it feels like in the first week in class.The thought of having to go through that same cycle really bores and irritate me.Pfft.

Ill miss every silliest things we do. All the best for next semester's class.We'll meet up as often as we can ^^. Saranghaeyo E36R~

P.S I love my girls

2009-08-21T23:53:00.008+08:00

So after a week,Im already done with 3 papers and Cognitive was the hardest surprisingly.I took more about half an hour to complete the first 5 questions and so struggled with the rest hour with the balance of 20 questions.No,i wasn't able to finish.Booo.Last minute read through of 6ps doesn't help AT ALL.It suck if I have to repeat this sucky module.Mannnnnn.

I have 2 papers more to go next week,so after that,I'll be F-R-E-E.jYEAH.

Did a short meet-up with my girls. :D What else when you have Peepot's "don't-drop-this-please" camera?Camwhore ahhhh.I've yet seen Huda.I miss her.Andreyana's rarely got online.I miss her too.

Im tired and my eyes are closing very veryy soon.So goodnight.Selamat menjalani ibadah puase. :D

Nights,
i have 2 more days for sneakpeeks. :(

Exams fever

2009-08-19T21:51:00.003+08:00

Exams has unfortunately already started.Just now was the start paper and I thought it was manageable but results might be otherwise.Pfft.Science is tomorrow and I have yet to do revisions.Worse thing is that I waste my time downloading my baby's japanese album(thanks to Clarie for telling me) and I dont have the nervous feeling yet.My god.I should just jump down.Why am I doing this,wasting my time.Pffft.

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I should be proud of myself.That im doing perfectly okay.So what if what I used to hope is no longer hopeful?So what if what I wanted is useless already?So what if the thing that I thought I need is no longer needed?Its all crushed and thrown away.I wouldn't expect myself to find back those thrown pieces and mend it all.No.

However,it could be that I spoke too soon.How funny that sometimes my words and thoughts would always contradict.

I must head for revision.Or should we all just NOT study? :D heh.

It takes two to clap

2009-08-17T21:42:00.004+08:00

Boo.Its Monday,boo.My weekend was over just like that.With nothing,absolutely nothing productive at all.

I had ceremonial over at granny's place last saturday to welcome Ramadhan that's to come this week.Huhu,its been long time since I've met my relatives.The atmosphere there was so kecoh-rable.Food was,yes,HEAVEN. :D Hehe.

Sunday was supposed to be a Sentosa Outing with the girls but many thing cropped up.No worries,we gonna do meetup soon right babies?

Monday was alright though Maths was a little too heavy to start the week with.Second term is coming to an end very soon.Tomorrow would be the last lesson then vroom with sucky UT3s and woohoo,5 weeks break! I thought of skipping tomorrow but what difference would it make?Pft,skip that thought.

Im slowly healing from last week's mess.I knew I couldn't be hoping every minute and trying every single second.Hurt is what i would be feeling now but then that would make me little stronger than I was before.Didn't expect things to take its turn this way neither do I have the ability to make things my way.I should be contented,if not,thankful that the love i saw more than two years back has taught me manymany things.If moving on is the only way,I couldn't help but to do that.

I should head for a good night's sleep if not I would have trouble waking up.

Nights,

"Its up to you to determine how long you will feel that hurt"

2009-08-14T13:20:00.002+08:00

If bouncing back up is the only option,then Im'ma do just that.

Just wanna think about

2009-08-05T22:48:00.005+08:00

Okay,I re-update this whole post. Particularly because yesterday's stories were all mashed up.
About yesterday,we made a plan to wear black.During break we did some touch-ups + camera = CAM-WHORE. :D.
Like i said previously,it was a slow start yesterday but Nigel's failblogs video really cracked me up.So Clarie,Nigel and I took more than enough sweets during breaks and due to our sugar rush,we open topics that really made ourselves crack real hard.Few of us then head on for our evening movie.*THE HANGOVER* I swear it was bloody hilarious.Go catch it if you haven't!

As for today,I got really really sweet classmates.Classmates that bother to send you down and hail a cab when your not feeling so well.Nigel and Q literally run to hail a cab for me just now.Yes im feeling more than grateful.Thank you Nigel,Q and Clarie.

Its been awhile since Im this happy and just enjoying everyday.I ought to worry about nothing because I have a choice to.I don't need events to remind me how sad I would be or I could be.I don't need reminders to remind me how much hurt I've been through or am still going through.
Im very much thankful that I could live up to today and enjoy whats mine and brush off what's not mine.

Its a little sad how close am i to my classmates already yet we are parting very very soon.About 2 weeks time? Its very nice to see how comfortable we are around each other and any remarks we made are just plain jokes.Its very warming how we can depend on each other for help or for just bitch gossips. Sighhh. Ill miss this.

Q's flight's tomorrow morning and Im going to miss her. :( Mannnn.
I hope you'll have a safe journey and bring back CHOCOLATESS!Have fun in Melbourne!

Later,

Have you thought of me even once?

2009-08-01T22:49:00.006+08:00

Im beginning to be a 2NE1 fan.Their songs are simply awesome. :D

Im addicted to Kara's Wanna And BEG's Abracadabra and Candy Man.Woohoo,many comebacks!

Stay together lyrics is pretty much what Im going through for now.How I always think that Im strong enough if anything were to crumble.I came to a point where im disappointed that I wasn't right in the first place.How last time i gave my share of comfort to those who's going through the same thing and now,I couldn't find that comfort.Its almost 2 months and Im still stuck at where i left.I wasn't planning to stay like this for long but i can't seem to move,atleast for now.I feel pretty much pathetic.Conclusion?I have to be strong,not for this.For me.myself.Yes?

Please love me

Please come back to me

Hold me like you used to

Please comfort me,please call me right now.

How about 2pm to cheer me up?*Jaebom Oppa~~*

come back?

2009-07-30T21:45:00.006+08:00

What's there in you that had me linger?What's so special in what we share years ago had me hoping?What's with waiting for right time when I know time can never be right?
What's with the random conversations that we had now and then? I can be optimistic and say I don't need this,but how far can I lie?I've been letting myself down without reasons.No,I can't let this happen.As much as I want this,I know there's reason why things went this way.I regret I acted on impulse.What can I do to fix this.Man,again my words are contradicting.Pfft.
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I finally had my hands on the photos we took last Friday.Somehow it seems that friday night has been a routine.I totally love photos we took over at Esplanade.There are,like usual,plenty more but these are enough.*winks*

Today was not alright at all.Except the fact that Andy has been discharged. *yippees*
Lesson suck,Rj suck.Bleargh. Im lazy to attend class tomorrow.I want to make some escape plan.Should I? Heh.

Have an early night.

ill miss bits of this

2009-07-23T21:11:00.008+08:00

If I could turn back time,I would want yesterday all over again! Everyone in class came,dressed up and all were very very excited.

I thanked Q for fetching me yesterday morning.If not i would sadly walked in the rain alone. -.-

Class was very hyped up yesterday.Everyone was buzzing with comments for each other on how good they look. Girls spend more of the time in the toilet making sure that their extra make up is intact and could never miss the camwhoring.

Guys were so smartly dressed with their formal shirt,pants and shoes but they never lack of their silliness.
I got many more photos to share but this will do isn't? Pictures are not really edited,they are good as it is thanks to Nigel. :D
I thought of posting the video of the guys doing a catwalk.It was seriously hilarious but Im not able to tilt the video.Maybe next time.

Meanwhile,here u go ~

*they lost their coolness to this tie-cat fight and rail climbing*

The usual companions that never fail to make the day.

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As for today,its a big bore.However Clarie and I imitated GD using Nas headband. That's how bored we were.I've yet to finish my rj. Im getting seriously lazy to attend class nowadays.Bleargh.However semester 1 coming to an end pretty soon.I'll miss the usual people,especially Quraisha.

Im off to complete my rj!

Nights!

2009-07-21T20:56:00.003+08:00

I've came to a small realisation.As time passes,the feelings i feel then and now continues to be the same but what happens to the situation? Nothing went better. Nothing falls apart. Maybe things are crumbling bit by bit. I've been thinking of ways,how should i make all of this better when in the first place i created a damage to this. On the other hand,why must I be the one making such effort to save this before it crumbles down terribly.Why not we?Was it because you couldn't much less be bothered?because you knew what's save will perish eventually.

Why am i saving things that i knew it could no longer be saved? Why am i giving myself hope when i know this isn't working out? Why am i painfully going through this when i know when love knocks you down,get back up?

but then again, "what's yours will be yours"

all it takes

2009-07-19T20:46:00.009+08:00

Yesterday was more than worth it.Another reunion,another surprise. We knew mission was accomplished the moment she teared.

Dear Nadhirah Hamizah, you've been more than a great friend.You never fail to make us feel better with your humour. Thank you for all these years thank you for standing by for all five of us. I love you.

It'll be soon that Andreyana leave but in blink of an eye she will come back again. Hehh.I'll miss you over again.
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I went to Orchard Central for the first time last friday.I got no words to explain because the sight was breath-taking. Pictures speaks a thousand words,here you go.

Probably mum already knows half of my secrets by now.Sheesh.Its good somehow but its not good that i couldn't hide things anymore,no?

If i would to ask myself if i want this back.I would say yes but what about you?

If i would to ask if this works,I would reply yes,i can try but then,would you?

What makes me linger now it those memories,its you.yes?and the false hope im giving myself.

Yet,i'll do okay in time to come.not now,just later.

Bali Thai

2009-07-16T08:29:00.006+08:00

Family and I celebrated Andy's 1st birthday at Bali Thai.Its was a total feast and the bill was "fu yo". That was last monday and so it explained the dued photos. Andy was already beginning his one two steps.He'll be able to run any time soon. haha. Of course, he is more mischievous. He would grab our hands to ask us to tour around the house with him. He is clever already to call us and to imitate some of our actions. Yes,i love him and Adam.

My baby-aussie-girl has came back few days ago.Im more that happy to receive that morning call. We did some surprise plans and all went well. :) She surprise Zul earlier then came down to surprise Hendri and Shahrul.Their reactions were so hilarious. After UT,off for another mission.This time the girls. Tears flowed as Andreyana walks in. After 3 months,its finally a reunion. :) A day of fun,camwhores,story telling and laughter is definitely on the way. I can't wait!

School today was so draggy and tiring.No i do not want to elaborate. Grr. Maths tomorrow and sheesh,im just going to waste another day. I really don't feel like attending class cause im not much help to my team when it comes to algebra + numbers + calculations. I will end up youtubing on some kpop things,blog hopping and chatting away. So how,should i attend?

I have proposal to submit by the end of the week.I better get going.

Take care everyone.

Monday ....

2009-07-13T13:55:00.003+08:00

(Dued photos)

I should be listening to other groups presentations yet,here iam plugged in with music and blogger to give me enough distractions.

I've already present that adds up for not listening to class' open discussions.I have feeling that Goh Chin Hong will call me anytime to ask for opinions and stuffs.He likes to catch students when they are busy doing something else.Like how busy some of my classmates are with their "Typing Maniac". =.=

I haven't start reading 6Ps for Enterprise paper in 1 and half hour's time. Like any others im so going to struggle.Sighs.Im half awake,so how does that going to help me in my paper? Shits.

Plus i have maths UT tomorrow.BIG ARGH.

Things are still going like it is.I'll do fine,:)

I miss my girls.Really.

I miss Andreyana.

Have a good week ;)

Andy's 1st Birthday

2009-07-12T13:59:00.004+08:00

Yes!Finally my baby boy has turn 1!!Had a big birthday party yesterday.House was full with Micky Mouse stuffs.Andy loves Mickey Mouse. Also,we celebrated little Noah,Adam's Auntie Nana and Eyrul's birthday. Food was perfect but my ulcer was being such a d*** that i couldn't eat so much.Bleargh.

I always look forward to going home even at times im tired to take care of the kids but seeing both Adam and Andy smile and playing around makes my day.
The house if definitely quiet without them. Andy is walking soon,gosh,this will be harder if we have to run around the house catching him. haha.

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Yes,I've moved here.For the mean time perhaps?
I have to mug for UTs.Science paper last Friday was already a killer.Gosh.

Take care. :)